Part 2: Scratches On Paper

I'm going to share some of the things that consumed my mind and heart while I was in Haiti. I kept a journal while I was there, and you are about to get a glimpse into the words a scratched on notebook paper during the week of my sweaty heart...


June 9, 2012

Jesus,
Bring my entire being here. Bring my heart here, God. Bring all You have and all You are to my attention. Consume me. Give me perspective. Change my heart in the process. Give me joy. Give me a servant's heart and a positive "go get em" attitude. Speak every word through me, God. 
Make me rejoice like a great athlete eager to run this long run you have set before me. Lord, I need this time of being off-pace. Do what you want with me, Lord. 
<3 J



June 10, 2012

This way of life is incredible. And do they long for more? No. they don't know the extents of the "more" I know. The "more" I know is clothes, money, attention, internet, stuff, cars, opportunities, time, space, jobs and control. The average Haitian makes $2 a day. That's 2 dollars. I make more than that in 15 minutes...in air conditioning...sitting down. With a COLD drink. A padded, comfortable chair. Driving with laws that ensure my safety (for the most part). 
Church today was so good. Two hours long. I sat by a guy who made room for me when we walked in. He couldn't have been a whole lot older than me. Maybe 24 or 25 at the oldest. He was so nice. He translated a lot for me. He prayed a lot and they all sang so loudly and so beautifully.


June 11, 2012

This spirit of the Lord is everywhere. I'm realizing how little struggle I have in my life. I'm slowly learning what the word "raw" really means.
I HAVE been very present here. However, my number one struggle is still the mindset of just trying to get through this. I hate that. I want to be fully present and allow God to speak in this time and I want to know Him and others on deeper levels. Intentionally.
I'm ready to raise awareness and adavocate for the orphans of America and other nations as well. I want these 6 weeks working for DHS to be hard and so meaningful and beneficial to every person I come in contact with. The US has so many resources. God has changed my perspective through this trip...